3 Sunflowers...

Today marks the last day of March, the last day of my one month depression until the next March. Every year, I’d just be glad that this month was over and not do anything but move on with my life. This year, I wanted to do something different. So, I bought myself 3 sunflowers. Why sunflowers you asked? It was my dad’s favorite flower. He always loved it for as long as I can remember. I decided to do a ritual of saying goodbye to him and to the month of March at the lake in front of my condominium at the park. Why the lake? It was one of his favorite places in the whole of Subang Jaya. Why 3 out of every other number I could have? Easy, because each of them represents a specific day and meaning as you shall see.

The first flower is a dedication for my dad’s birthday. His birthday was at the 1^st of March and he would have turned 62 this year. I said happy birthday to him and gave him this flower as well as told him stories of the good old times back then. I remembered on one of my birthdays back then when he and my whole family tricked me during my birthday. They made it as if they never bought any birthday presents for me that year. They told me sorry and I said to them it was okay with a broken heart that year. When I came back from the bathroom, the room was filled with presents and I was so surprised by it. I still couldn’t believe they pulled off a stunt like that on me! Wish I could have gotten even with them for that. I wanted to do something like that on his birthday. As they say, it’s never too late. It’s my turn to surprise you with this flower. Happy birthday Papa!

The second flower was a dedication to the anniversary of the day of his death. He died battling cancer on the 29^th of March 2000. It was such a sad day and I was still so young that I couldn’t remember much on what happen that day. But I did remember that he smiled all the way until the very end. I never got a chance to say goodbye to him before because I was too young to understand what it meant when someone died. And so, with this flower I say goodbye to him. I told him that I love him, that I miss him, and that I’ll be okay no matter what happens from now on. Even though we’re apart from each other physically, I know that he’s always with me in my heart. I hope you’re having a nice time up there owning a field of sunflowers as far as you can see just like the ones you’ve described to me before. Rest in peace Papa…

The last flower was to say goodbye to the month of March. Finally, the month of depression is over. With this flower, I throw my sorrows and regrets away, letting it get washed away into the water. I break myself free from the chains that had held me back for all this time. I wish upon this flower that may I find peace within my mind, and my heart. Goodbye for another year March. I’ll do my best to get over the month of March next time for my family, for my friends, for my dad, and most of all… for myself.

This goodbye ritual has helped me find what I’ve been looking for… closure. I’m thinking of making this a yearly thing so that every time March came along, I’d do this at the end. It certainly makes me feel better to do this rather than just wait for the month to end and not do anything. Some wise friends of mine once told me, that instead of thinking about it too much, getting myself depressed, I should do something for my dad and for myself. Thanks to everyone who’s put up with me all throughout this month and those who’ve helped me get through all of this. Sorry for causing such trouble to everyone and again, thank you. Till next time Papa, bye bye!

Grindhouse : Planet Terror Review

Okay, this has got to be the most ridiculously stupidest movie I've ever seen. It was really, really horrible! I've had my share of bad movies before but this thing takes the cherry on top of the cake. This movie was directed and created by Robert Rodriguez in the year 2007. Wow, and that was only 2 years ago. For a movie supposedly created in the year 2007, it has the worst quality ever.

I couldn't stop myself from laughing while I was watching it. But not because it was funny. The movie was so horrible, I found myself laughing on the floor. Least that helped cheer me up a little. Seriously, it's that bad! The movie is suppose to be a zombie movie and I was thinking that maybe it could compete with a movie such as the Resident Evil trilogy. Man was I way, way off the mark.

Not only was the quality of the movie extremely bad, the plot was worse. The special effects were seriously defected as it looked like such a low-budget film. Correction, it made a low-budget film seem like a blockbuster hit. The lines used in the movie seemed like something used back in the 70's. Yeah, it was THAT bad. Don't even get me started on the acting. Never have I seen such bad acting before. I mean, it made the Disaster Movie looked like an Oscar award winning movie.

There goes 1 hour and 30 minutes of my life. If you want a good zombie movie, go for the Resident Evil trilogy or the Dawn of the Dead quadrilogy. Now those are some good movies. Least better than this piece of junk. I literally wanted to gauge my eyes out from seeing this crappy movie. I know that it's a cruel thing to say, but I'm just stating the facts in my own opinion and my own opinion is saying that the movie was the worst movie ever created as far as I know. Planet of the Apes was better than this low-budget film.

What was your worst movie experience?

Efforts of Earth Hour 2009

Earth Hour happened yesterday as most of you would know. I tried to persuade my family into taking part of the event and I could only manage to convince them to turn off the lights inside the house. The rest of the electronics were still on unfortunately, such as the TV and porchlight. Oh well, at least we did something rather than nothing right?

Not much I can say about the condomenium next to mine. They supposedly are celebrating Earth Hour 2009 by having an outdoor event. Ironically, they turned on all of their electrical appliances and there were a lot of lights on the park at their side. The lights were like the ones you see on stadium game matches so you could imagine how bright it was. Not to mentioned the karaoke session they had over there that was really noisy with all the speakers they put up. Talk about environmental friendly right?

I must say that I'm impressed with the efforts put on by some shopping malls. They celebrated Earth Hour throughout this whole month by being environmental friendly. Some put up a few recycling bins within the mall, while others reduced the number of lights turned on during that period of time. Although it's not much, it's a start. Everything begins with a small step right?

Most of my friends celebrated Earth Hour as well by closing off all of their lights and electrical appliances which I'm so proud of them doing their part to help the world. Some of them even closed off all of their electrical appliances throughout the night until morning!

I've always loved the environment and I do the best that I can to do my part in helping the world. Some things that I do to conserve energy is closing off all switches that is not in use or needed at the moment such as my phone charger, my lights, even at times my fan. Before I go to sleep, I'd make sure the lights and switches are turned off and when my phone has been charged fully, I'd close the switch straight away instead of waiting until I'm free to do so. As for water, I'd close the tap while I'm brushing my teeth as I won't use it until I need to rinse so it'd save the water. I even recycle the old newspapers lying in the house at times.

Society today seem to take things for granted. Some litter their thrash around everywhere. At home, at work, even at public places. They expect other people to clean their thrash so it'd be okay to just leave or worse, throw their rubbish everywhere. It saddens me to see how people don't seem to care about the environment they live in. When I see the thrash lying around at times, I have a very strong urge to just pick it up and throw it away. People need to think this through, do you want to live in a world filled with thrash such as this?

The earth needs a break from the power we've taken from it for so long. Even 1 hour can make a big difference. People need to realize and do something about the environmental problems we're facing instead of realizing and not do anything whatsoever. Even throwing your thrash in the garbage bin would help the environment. It takes just one person to make a difference. Would you be that person?

Confessions of a Shopaholic (2009) Movie Review

Rated as the number one anticipated movie by all shoppers, this comedic movie directed by P.J. Hogan proved to be a worthwhile movie to watch. My first impression when I first saw the trailer was the lead actress who looked at first I thought was Amy Adams of Enchanted. When I heard her speak, I knew then that it was a different actress. Also, when I looked at her more closely, she looked a little different compared to Amy Adams, as she looked smaller to me.

The movie tells the story of a shopaholic journalist named Rebecca Bloomwood (played by Isla Fisher) who is drawn to a store and buy just about anything like a moth to a flame. One day, her addiction got the best of her when all 12 of her credit cards had been reached to its maximum limit and the magazine that she was working for had gone to bankruptcy causing her to be in a big credit card debt. But that doesn't stop her from shopping for things though.

That was only the starting of the movie. I won't tell you the whole story as it would just kill off your anticipations. But still it's a good movie to watch if you have the urge to shop till you drop for things that you don't really need. It really hits you at the spot with all the things said within the movie which is true to most of us.

It has a lot, and I mean a lot of comedy within it as well as some serious moments. Although there are parts of it which is quite cliché, still it was good. I especially liked how desperate the people were when there was a sale going on. It was really hilarious especially the part with the frozen credit card. There were a few touching moments as well, mostly near the end, as any comedy/chick flick movie would have.

Overall the movie was great. It won't win a number one spot to me, but still it was good. One thing that I still don't understand was why this movie was rated PG13. There wasn't really much things that would be inappropriate for children unlike some U movies that I've seen. Heck, there wasn't even any love scenes within the movie! I'd give it a 3.3 out of 5 star rating. There were some eye-opening values to shopaholics everywhere portrayed within the movie so that's good for all you shoppers out there who can't control yourself. I'd say go and watch it when you can with some friends, especially if you're a shopaholic. This is the ideal movie for you guys.

Little bit of both bad and good day

Today started a little rough at the beginning. I screwed up my group presentation this morning. I blanked at some of the points I was talking about and had to refer to my notes and not to mention that I stuttered a lot when I was talking. I should have written it down on cue cards in case something like that were to happen.

After that, I guess it got a little bit better as my mood was still good. There was an Apple exhibition in college today which was quite informative on the amount of cash that I need to get my Mac. LP and Paul just love to rub it in my face, to everyone's face for that matter. They were such pure Mac promoters. Evil!

After that, Lik Pang, Han Sen, Jonathan and myself went to hang out at Han Sen's house for awhile. We were playing games and joking around a lot during that time. It was fun.

We left his house around 7.00pm to go to the Earth Hour event at college. It was quite alright I guess. There was free food and drinks so all was good. When that was over at around 9.30pm, we went to eat dinner at one of the mamak's store. We stayed for about an hour until we all had to go home.

On the way back, I started feeling a little bit... let's just say tired. My mood swings are more frequent this week so guess it's not much of a surprise. Oh well, I'm still able to keep a straight face so that's good news.

That was about all I can write for now as I'm still feeling a little tired. Tomorrow I might be watching a movie with Han Sen so I'll write a review on the movie we'll be watching as tomorrow's post. Most likely the movie is going to be the new one called "Confessions of a shopaholic" so we'll see how it goes.

Rain

I love playing in the rain. The only thing I don't like is when my clothes are wet and my mom starts scolding me for it. The rain seems really... peaceful to me. I feel free whenever I'm in the rain. A lot of you may say that it sounds crazy, but it's true. Regardless of whether there would be a higher chance for me to fall sick due to the rain.

I believe that the rain can cleanse a person of any trouble he or she is facing. When those raindrops roll down your cheeks, it feels as though you have nothing to worry about. The rain washes every sin and guilt you have away. Any sort of problems are instantly gone at that moment in the rain.

I haven't played in the rain for quite some time now. I should do it soon to clear my head of all the issues. Who knows? Maybe if I do it often enough, the rain would wash away all of my sicknesses along with it.

A day of rest, relaxation and a whole lot of fun!

Today was just what I needed. A break from everything. After our class today LP and I went to invade Han Sen's house for fun. We were thinking before that of going home early until the idea came to us like a shining light shines up above our heads. A calling... to annoy the heck out of Han Sen. But naa, we went to his house to see how the group assignment was and help him out in finishing it. Okay, mostly we just wanted to annoy him ahahah!

We were finishing up the presentation slides that we were going to use this Friday. It was a little bit frustrating to change it, but Han Sen and I left it to LP to summarize most of it. And then it got to the fun part when we were thinking up some whacky ideas for the slides. It's seriously cute and hilarious and I can't wait for us to present it on Friday. Especially the part where we introduce LP to the class ahahah!

After we finished up the slides around 7.00pm+, Han Sen's parents came home and brought with them some pizzas for everyone to eat. Yay, free food hahaha! But LP and I felt like we were imposing on them a lot. But they said it was okay and they've already bought the food so we can't exactly refuse them. Oh well, pizza was delicious and so were the lychees *grins*.

Han Sen did a very big mistake though. He introduced Sims 2 to LP which resulted in him getting so obsessed with it. He was smiling non-stop while he was building his so called dream house. It was really hilarious to see him like that. Han Sen was teaching him that and was watching some chinese dramas on TV with me. I haven't watch chinese drama shows in quite a long time so I was kind of thrilled to watch it again. Eventhough the plot was quite predictable, still was all good.

We left his house around 9.30pm after LP was finally done with his house, which looked really incomplete and ridiculous but oh well, it's his dream house so we didn't want to say anything... oh who are we kidding? Of course we critisized it! But it was all fun and good hahaha! Today was a really good day and having fun like that made me forget about all my troubles just like that. Thanks guys!

Loss of Focus on Work

For the past few days I've been neglecting my assignments quite a lot. I still have some that I haven't finish yet and what's worse is that most of them are group assignments. I feel that I've caused my group members a lot of trouble by letting my emotions control me. I've manage to finish off some of them already, but there's still a lot left to do. And the worst part is that one of it is dued on this coming Thursday and the other is on Friday.

My mind is getting too much clouds within it that my judgements so far hasn't been practical. I fear that I would pull all of them down if I don't clear my head right now. I'm doing what I can right now to face the issues and hopefully, no, I will be able to finish off all those work that I've been neglecting. Funny how we humans lose our focus easily when we get emotional.

I'm probably going to get less focused on work as the days pass by. One more week and it's over for another year.

Resolution for a Mac!

Those of you who hangs around with me a lot probably already know that I've been anti-Apple for a very long time. I've been calling others who have a MacBook like LP Mackers for using it. He's been the number one Apple supporter that I know so far with his iPod, iPhone, MacBooks, etc. You name it, he'll most likely own it. He's been promoting Apple to me for so long that I finally broke. Now I want a MacBook! Curse you LP! I'm blaming you for it!

Since everyone in the family needs to use the computer and we only have one laptop in the whole house, my mom and sister are beginning their hunt for another laptop. I took the chance and imposed the idea to them about the MacBook. I gave a short speech to them, and now they're asking for a proposal from me. Well, I got a surprise for them. I'm preparing a complete business proposal for them as to why MacBooks are a good investment as LP and Paul would say. I'm even preparing some graphs and statistics and working on my presentation to them. It's going to be a long 1-2 hours for them when I'm done with all of it.

For now, I'm considering of just getting it for myself with my own money so I've been coming up with some plans on how I could save money and maybe earn some. So far, my tutoring job is earning me RM7 an hour, 2 hours a week and that then is added to my allowance for a month. From now on, I'll bring brunch from home instead of buying it outside as always. And as for dinner, depending on the day I would either buy it outside or eat at home. If I've to eat outside, I'll buy at max RM7 and that would save me plenty already.

Let's look at the simple formula. No money equals to

Saving money until you love it which means

Saying no to Starbucks! Remember, no means NO!

As for movies, I'll just get some downloads from my friends and leech of them by copying the file to my laptop and watch it. That means I don't have to spend cash to go watch it at a cinema. I won't be shopping for anything like movie CDs or clothes and such so that would cut the expenditure by a lot. During semester breaks, I'd go work part-time at college which would earn me RM5 an hour and that would be a great plus for saving up for the MacBook.

Some of my friends think that I'm crazy with this ludicrous plan, yet I call it economical logistics.

Special post for the weekend! Part 2

Oookay I'm sure that some of you are blur on what I wrote on my last post. I wrote that post in the L33t language because well, I haven't done it in a long time and someone thought that I should write it in my blog for once ahaha! Okay, here's the translation :

A lot of you may not know this, but I can speak in leet language most of the time. I haven't done it in awhile so we will see how it goes. I learned this language from playing a lot and I mean a lot of online games. I always see people speaking in this language and from then on I just caught up on the language myself. It's not easy to write it, but it's quite simple to read it.

A few, okay maybe a lot of my friends, especially those in the IT field can't speak and read this language to my utmost surprise. Wow, I can't believe they can't understand it when I can read it easily ahaha!

Last time, I always talked with some of my online friends in this language when there are a lot of people around us. It was fun to talk in codes so that no one would know how to eavesdrop on you. Whenever we wanted to talk in secret, we'd use this language.

To those of you who can understand this, congratulations! To those who don't, I'll post the translation on Sunday ahahah!

And that was what I wrote yesterday. It was quite fun and troublesome to write it at the same time as I needed to translate the alt codes to get some of the symbols that I used. But still, it was fun to do it after so long ahahah!

Special post for the weekend! Part 1

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Curse of KL???

Yet another trip to KL again with the notorious LP happened today. Only this time, we didn't just go to look at some books. We were actually there because LP wanted to check the launching of the IPhone in Malaysia supported by Maxis. It was quite okay... for a ghost town. No one really went for the event because the IPhone was already out in Malaysia, well, pirated ones anyway. As Malaysians, it would be unMalaysian-like to not be the pirates that we are! Quoting from LP, we're 2nd compared to the pirate Gods in China.

Moving on to the horror story, when we were about to go home, we somehow forgot where we parked the car. At first I told him that we parked at lvl3, so we went searching at lvl3 for the car. 10 minutes later, we ended up empty handed. Then LP said that it's at lvl2 and if we found the car there, he was going to murder me. Luckily for me, the car wasn't there either so hah! After that, we thought back about when we entered KLCC with the alternate entrance. We never went up or down so then it must be at lvl1. We found the car there after spending around 15-20 minutes looking for it.

After that we went and picked up his friend and headed back home. Again, we got a little lost on the way but luckily chose the right road. Seriously, it's like everytime we go to KL, something like this had to happen to us. It must be the curse of KL.

Hostility

Well today started really... bad. I'm still a little, okay maybe a lot angry right now. Someone made me really really pissed for the past few days and that anger made my mood very hostile towards others around me. I stayed away from everyone early in the morning so that I wouldn't throw a tantrum to them. That at least worked until I could calm myself and control my emotions better infront of other people.

Anger is never a good emotion. It can cloud your judgement and change your attitude towards others. I learn that the hard way from a long time before. I lost my temper before back then and said some cruel things to a friend of mine who did nothing but bumped into me by accident. It was many years ago, but it's still stuck in my head and to this person, it's kind of late but I'm sorry for what I said back then.

When you're frustrated, you can't focus on your work at times. But in my case, I can usually do work even more if no one bothers me that moment as I was in no mood to socialize with anyone either. Of course, I'd still be angry when I did it but at least I'm not doing nothing at all. My lecturer and friends in class were surprise to see me read my notes extensively and not entertain any of them. I spent my time studying today, and focused on it a lot. That is of course, lasted only in the morning when I was in a very hostile mood. When it reached afternoon, I managed to surpress it from my friends and not blow up on them. And when that happened, I decided to socialize with them instead of focusing on my work.

Lesson learnt. When you're in a state of rage, it's best to stay away from everyone until you can control your emotions infront of people.

Drag Queen Competition

Let's look back and re-live the horror that is the Drag Queen Competition which took place last Friday. Here are your INTI Drag Queen contestors!!

Nicolai (Nicholas)

First up we have the boob-a-licious Nicolai with her smashing purse and "assests".

Chantelle (Daryl)

Next we have the ever so sexy Chantelle. Someone get her number!

Zara (Zack)

Up next we have the adorable Zara! Don't be fooled by her timidness for she's a feisty one.

Unfortunately, I couldn't find a single picture of our last contestant, Laura (Mus). So up next are the group shots!

First off we have all the contestants over here lining up once again for the audience. Enjoy it folks, for they are at your mercy.

Note how they each try to win the appeal of the audience with their beauty. Especially sexy Chantelle seducing the men at the mercy of her sexiness.

Ahahahaha! And that was your INTI Drag Queen contestors! I told you that it was a horror story didn't I hehe. In the end, Nicolai won the Draq Queen title while Laura takes the title of most hairiest of them all. And last but not least, of course Chantelle won the most sexiest contestant out of the four, voted as the people's choice. Wow... I never knew that English Day was such a PG13 event until I came to INTI.

Rules, Please & Thank You

Ever since I was about 9+, I've always set a few lifelong rules for myself to follow. One of them being to smile no matter what life throws at you, just keep smiling. Don't ever lose your calm and don't ever show your emotions. I've broken so many of my own rules, I have to make amends. I've decided to implement back the rules that I've set for myself back into my system. Hopefully, I can follow all of them, regardless of the situation.

Rules seem to have lesser impact on society with each passing day. Some rules nowadays we take lightly when back then the punishment could have been the death penalty for all we know. I know quite a lot of people who seem to not know how to follow given rules such as being quiet in the office or no food and drinks allowed. Even at home, my own family doesn't always follow through the rules and some even stopped caring about the rules.

Even worse are people who just takes what they want without having the decency to even ask permission for it. People also seem to not express their gratitude as they should anymore. A simple "Thank you" is too difficult for them to even say, let alone express.

Where has common courtesy gone in this world we live in? Are the times when people followed rules and were polite to each other gone? Have the simple words such as please and thank you been eradicated from this world? If this is how people treat each other now, then I fear for how people would treat each other in the future.

Stress

Stressing is never good. But in some cases, it can actually be pretty good. When you're stress, you either do badly in your work due to exhaustion and over thinking, or if you're like me, you can actually do your best work under that kind of pressure. I always push everything to the last minute. It's a very bad habit of mine, but it gets the job done nicely most of the time. Just like right now, I have about 3 assignments due this week I think and I haven't started on any of it yet. And 2 of it is group assignment so I'm pretty sure my groupmates are going to kill me soon enough for this.

I was stress studying yesterday because of my politics exam today. It got so bad that I actually continued reading from my book in my dream when I was sleeping. Thankfully because of that, I remembered what I read in my dream and it actually came out as one of the questions in the exam ahaha! Due to certain reasons this month, I only got about 2 hours of sleep last night and I'm still awake since then without feeling sleepy, though tired but not sleepy.

Stress sometimes can push people over the edge. It's always the quiet ones as they say that's really crazy when their stress. I know a few people when their stress, they'd jump around hyperactively and some would even eat non stop without even realizing it. Some of them would laugh at anything you'd throw at them, and then some of them would be synical towards everything within range. Stress is a daily part of life that no one can escape. It's, say it with me people, "A Way Of Life".

Death

Death is inevitable. It's a painful thing that everyone must go through at some point in life. Death of a pet, an aquaintance, a friend, a family, a loved one and finally, death of yourself. It is a horrible experience, death is. It can break your spirits and happiness in an instant and make you lose hope for the future. It's a scary thing to go through it alone.

The first experience I had with death was when my father died when I was only about 9 and a half years old. I could never forget that day, and how I acted through it. I was young, and stupid. I didn't understand what it was when a person is dying. I didn't know how to react. I just stood there, staring without even shedding a tear until it was all too late. I didn't cry on his deathbed, I didn't cry when we buried him, I didn't cry for weeks. I cried only after a few months had passed and by then it was too late for me to even say goodbye to him.

Everyone dealt with this in their own way. My mom stayed in bed for weeks and wasn't up to doing anything most of the time. My sister was away in UK, London finishing up her studies. My brother became rebellious at the time, sneaking out of the house and getting into trouble. I was trying to be... a perfect child. I tried my best indulging myself into studying to avoid discussing it or even remembering the painful memories of that day. It was only years after that I realized that even if I avoided it by studying and being the perfect son who never gets into trouble, I'll have to face the reality of not seeing my dad again. No matter how much I didn't want to accept that reality, it won't ever change. After realizing that, I focused on moving on with my life. I still haven't succeeded in doing this but I'm trying my best.

I'm not afraid if death was coming for me, but I am afraid if it were to come for anyone I cared for and love. If death were to come for someone else that I cared about so much anytime soon, I don't know how I could ever face it. If it were to come for me, I'd say bring it on. I'd like to see it try and take me away. I sound like a hypocrite right now, but we can't fear it when it comes. Death is inevitable, so we can never let it control us.

Lost of Appetite

I'm not sure what happened exactly, but it's been like this since Monday morning. I can't seem to eat much anymore. I get sick quite fast if I ate the usual amount of food. Maybe it was something I ate last Monday that made me lose my appetite. I remembered how last time I could finish a whole large pizza by myself, now I'm lucky if I could even finish 2 slices. This is quite an intriguing development as I seem to be okay just eating 2 meals a day instead of 3. And it's not even Puasa month!

Pros from this lost of appetite?

• Save of money on meals.
• You lose weight.
• Less trips to crowded and bright places.
• More time to do other things than eating.
• More money in your pockets! (Yes I know I mentioned it already)

Cons from this lost of appetite?

• It's not healthy to skip meals.
• Feels as if you're Anorexic or you have Bulimia.
• Need to buy new pants or a belt as your old ones are too loose. Which costs you money!
• Your body has less energy with less food in the system.
• Your brain won't function sometimes. (Or there could be another reason for it even with food)

English Day

English Day was held at INTI College today by the ELS (English Language Society) headed by non other than Tynnkerbel herself. The event was quite a big success even with some complications along the way. Ed Board opened a stall that day selling hot dogs and cola drinks. It was quite a success as well. We actually made some profit from it which substracts our deficit. Okay, even though it's minimal but it was good. We earned money instead of losing it ahahah!

There were a few sketches that took place during the event and my favorite one was The Phantom Of The New INTI Building created and performed by JC and his group members. My favorite parts were when they mocked the new INTI logo in the play, when they teased the group before them, and most of all the twisted ending in which the Phantom and Raoul ran away together and lived happily ever after ahhahaha!

The biggest event out of all the other events today had to be the Drag Queen Competition. It was really hilarious to see the contestants in a dress, acting like beauty pageant winners. Daryl so should have won that contest ahahah! It had to be the biggest success out of all the events held by ELS today. Hands down.

After that, we got a cake for Tynnkerbel in celebrating her success of the day. Congratulations Tuan Tynn!

Surprise for LP!

Today was fun. We threw a surprise party for LP which he didn't even suspect a thing! Originally we wanted to throw him a party yesterday but he couldn't come to college because he was sick. Luckily I found out about it before I went and picked up his cake. We postponed it to today but we weren't sure about the time. Alexis went to get the cake while Paul, Charles and Jay stalled LP in AUP for as long as they can. Han Sen was getting the napkins from the shop while JC, Tuan Tynn and I got the room ready. After we got the cake, Alexis went to get LP to the room while the rest of us waited inside. Han Sen and I went to the next room to light up the candles and bring it in when he's inside the room. Surprisingly he didn't suspect us even with all the people in the room until he saw the cake. He was happy and pleased with it all. He even hugged everyone for it ahaha!

After he blew the candles, we let him cut up the cake for all of us and let him serve us. That was bad of us to do but technically to justify ourselves, his birthday isn't until tomorrow so he still has no special privilages yet. Of course, I gave him the present that I got him last monday along with the card signed by everyone. We told him not to open any of it until it is officially his birthday so better keep your promise LP! We also smashed a piece of cake in his face when he didn't want to eat any yet ahahaha!

Before we were going back home, LP treated me and Alexis some Subway for a second round. Alexis paid her own meal and LP paid for mine which I will be paying him back tomorrow. I don't care, you're going to take the mullahs! Anyways, happy birthday in advance LP!

To Study, Or Not To Study?

Now that is a really, really good question. Can you actually study when there are so much distractions around you? I can't seem to do it at most of the time, but when I do get a mood to study, I'll read for hours and hours, forgetting about getting any sleep or food in me. Tips on when you're reading, it's best to do it before you sleep. One time I did this with my history, I actually dreamt that I was living inside the event that I read about before I went to sleep. So yeah, that helped me memorized what happened a lot.

Studying also depends on your mood. If you're in a good mood, you'll most likely not study and just keep doing stuff that you like. If you're bored, you would give in to reading. If you're depressed, you will read like there is no tomorrow. I don't know about you guys, but I can be that way when I'm depressed. Now I really should be studying my american history as my exam is tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Unfortunate Day

An unfortunate day yet again in KL. Only this time, I went to KLCC by myself. Here's what happened last night. I followed my parents and sister to KL as they were going to watch a play at Istana Budaya, so they just dropped me off at KLCC as I had to go and buy my friend's birthday present. Oh boy, you have no idea how much trouble it was to get the gift. First, I didn't bring any cash with me so I thought I'd just withdraw some money from the ATM but, out of all the days my card had to have some error during that time so I couldn't withdraw from any of the ATM machines over in KLCC. Then, I took a cab from KLCC to Istana Budaya to get some money from my sis. Ironically, I went to her to get some money when I spent about RM40 on the cab fare to go there and back to KLCC.

After that fiasco, I went to buy the gift and thankfully, it was on a 20% discount sale so that was a relief. When that was done with, I had to wait for my family to finish with their play. They said it'd finish at 10.30pm, so I thought okay, I'll just wait and read my books at Burger King. I bought some ice cream from there and that costed another RM3. Fine. Then, BK was closing as it was already 10.20pm and still no call or anything from my family. So, I had to change location and move to another place. Then I thought okay, let's wait at DOME since their going to be here soon and it's raining already. To sit at DOME apparently I have to buy something from them and as I didn't eat my dinner yet, I'll just have their apple squash or something which costed almost RM14. Great.

DOME then closed at 11.15pm and still no calls from my family. So then I just sat out in the rain waiting for them, not spending another dime as I'm already broke as it is. Finally at 11.45pm, they picked me up from KLCC. What a long night that was. And I was only planning to buy the gift at KLCC and do nothing else which would have taken only like, 10 minutes at most I think? 

Seriously! Have your family ever ditched you until it reached to that extent before?

Reunion

I hate myself. Yesterday's reunion didn't exactly go as planned. I somehow got myself sick that night with a heavy migraine and a stomach ache. I think i got food poisoning or something. Anyways, the migraine was really bad. I almost fainted during the photo session as there were too many bright lights flashing and too many people around. I ran straight out to the bathroom after the last photo was shot and stayed there for awhile. Because of that, I missed the birthday singing and cutting of the cake by all the March babies.

After that, I spent most of the time just sitting down, trying to calm both my migraine and my stomach ache. I didn't get a chance to mingle much with everyone. A few close friends of mine knew what was wrong so they sat down next to me and talked with me. Thanks guys... Because I was sick, I decided to leave the party early. Even though I really, really wished that I could stay a lot longer, I'd just be a burden to my friends who are taking care of me.

Some funny stuffs did happen though, like it took us 1 hour + to start the bbq fire. We were using this charcoal that was shaped like a Curry Puff. It looked really weird. To start it, we gathered some leaves and sticks we found on the field and burn them below the charcoal. Some of us looked a whole lot different than the last time we met. It was really fun, despite that I got sick. I can't wait for the next gathering next year.

School Days

In a few hours from now I will be attending my old high school Form 5 class 2nd reunion. I'm quite excited and can't wait as we haven't gather like this since last year, though some of them can't make it to the reunion. I remember back in school, how noisy we were, how we annoy some of the other teachers, how our homeroom teacher fought for us, how we threw a party when the classes next door we're having exams, how we helped and supported each other with everything, how we acted like... family.

I miss those days... Back when everything was simple and fun... I sometimes wish that it wouldn't end. But, everything comes to an end at some point. All we can really do is hold on to those memories, or move on with our lives along with the lessons learnt...

Weird Habits

A lot of people have weird habits that they follow through everyday. That goes for me too. I have a tendency to walk around in circles in my living room everyday while listening to my MP3 player. My family thought it was really weird for me to do such a thing last time, but they got used to it eventually. I think. I also have the tendency to talk to myself as if I'm talking to a group of people. Now this was really freaky to my family and to some people out in public as well I guess. That would explain the many people staring at me whenever I do this sort of thing.

Point is, everyone has a weird habit that they have to do to get through the day. It's a good thing to have as it can be an immaculate support for anyone. Don't let what people say about a habit that you do everyday stop you from doing it. Unless of course if that habit is killing people, literally.

Smart Tunnel For Dumb People

The title says it all. Smart tunnel really benefits dumb people like LP and me. Okay rewinding back to yesterday night. we left college at around 7.30pm and then...

LP : I think I should go to KL today to get my books. You wanna go?

Me: Aiyo why you want to go now la. I don't have my ATM card with me today so I can't buy anything since I only got RM30 left...

LP : Oh okay then.

Me: Ahh WTH. Let's go to KL again. I'll just use JC's method of reading books over there.

LP : Har??

And the conversation went on with us crapping a lot until we reached KL. Before we went to KLCC, we made a quick stop at Low Yat because LP was hunting for some computer parts for something. Curse him! I really got tempted a lot by the notebooks on sale over there. But since I'm broke, no notebooks for me. We went to this store which I completely missed the name of it to get his stuff. While we were browsing around, there was a mouse running around inside the store. The staff eventually caught the mouse on a mouse. Now there's something you don't hear everyday. Anyway, after he got his stuff, I got myself a pair of cheap speakers which LP then said...

LP : Why do you need speakers when you already have the earphones?

Me: Because I don't wanna go deaf. I use the earphones every single minute.

LP : Oh okay. So how much are the speakers worth?

Me: RM14.

LP : Oh so it's 3 months then.

Me: What!

When we were in the parking lot, after he just finished paying the ticket and we got into the car...

LP : Okay, next stop. KLCC.

Me: Okay. Yay books~

LP : On my IPod music for me please. Just attached that and open the IPod.

Me: Okay. Done. Eh no sound also. Oh okay the wire.

LP : Uh-oh, where did I put the parking ticket just now? Shit.

Me: Har?! You lost it already?!

LP : 2 minutes driving in the car and already I lost the ticket.

Me: Memang Terra.

LP : I give you permission to rummage through my wallet see if I put it in there.

Me: Nope not in here. Your pockets?

LP : Only change. Oh shit. Check around.

5 Minutes later...

Me: Hmm no where to be found.

LP : Okay found it.

Me: Har! Where was it?

LP : In the pocket of my shirt.

Me: . . .

After we left Low Yat, we went for KLCC to look at the books. And then...

LP : You know what? Before I go to US, I'm gonna go watch the F1 race at Sepang.

Me: F1 race at Sepang?

LP : Yeah. I always wanted to go watch it. This year I'm going to get the tickets.

Me: Why didn't you tell me last year. My sister always get free tickets to that race.

LP : Your sister works in Petronas?!

Me: Yeeeeaaaah. She usually gives the tickets to my brother but it's mostly cause I never ask it from her.

LP : . . .

After that we divide and conquered the store to look at our own stuffs. While he was looking for his stuff, I was looking for the birthday present for my friend. I finally found the perfect gift, but I forgot that my ATM card was with my mom at that time so I had no money to buy it. Man, this means I have to go to KL again and soon, as my friend's birthday is very soon. LP was crying when he couldn't get to buy some of the magazines as he went slightly over budget on his other books. The store was about to close at the time we were leaving, so just in time I guess. When we left KLCC...

LP : Okay, which exit do we take. What's on the right and on the left?

Me: Left is JLN Ampang and JLN Tun Razak. Right is JLN Tun Razak (Selatan).

LP : Ah either way is the same. Let's go left.

When we got out of the exit and made a few turns...

LP : Where are we again? I don't remember this road the last time we came here.

Me: I have no idea. I don't remember this road either.

LP : Should we continue on the unknown path or turn back to KLCC. Counting the loss of fuel and time if the unknown path was wrong... Ahh let's just go back to KLCC. Safest choice.

Me: Yeah I agree.

We got back to square 1. And then...

LP : Okay, let's go this way...

Me: Umm LP, the sign board...

LP : Oh shit!

Me: Yeaaah.

LP : Oh shit oh shit oh shit! Oh okay, the road joined back again. Okay now we're on the right road. Okay next time we go remember to take JLN Tun Razak (Selatan)! JLN Tun Razak (Selatan)!

Me: Eyup.

After that...

LP : Where's the smart tunnel? Is that the smart tunnel? No entry...

Me: Umm I think...

LP : Hmm what la this thing don't even have a sign board as to what tunnel it is.

Me: Err the sign board is over there on top of it.

LP : Yeah now I see it. Okay. Smart tunnel really for dumb people like us who are idiots with directions.

Me: Eyup.

When we got out the smart tunnel, everything went smoothly as we know where to go already. After that he sent me home and that was the end of another KL trip with the notorious LP. Conclusion, smart tunnel is really good for dumb people like us who don't know the road in KL and actually got ourselves lost in the process of finding the right road. Do you guys get this much trouble when you go to KL?

What is Music?

I ask myself this question sometimes, "What is Music?". A lot of people have different and diverse opinions on this subject. Music has been around for as long as anyone can remember. Why do people listen and compose music though? Here's a list of reasons that I believe to be the reason as to what Music is:

1. A Way Of Life - Some people say that music is a way of life, that it speaks to them. I'm not too sure on how to explain it, but I agree with this statement.
   
   
2. Expressing Feelings - This is definitely by far the most popular reason as to why people listen and compose music. The power to express oneself through music is really helpful when one cannot express it through speech. Through the mood set by the song, you can tell what the person is feeling at that moment. Whether it being the emotion of anger, joy, sad, playful and so on. You can also tell a person's emotion through the lyrics of the songs as well in some cases. If the person is listening to We Belong Together by Mariah Carey, you can tell that the person is missing someone he or she loves dearly. This is not an exact science as there are still other variables you need to consider like maybe the song has a nice beat or the songs is just nice to hear. If you're a composer, you could be like many artists and write your experinces in songs. Like say, a person who dumped you for another person who's more popular than you. Write a song about it, get famous, and when that person is begging you for a second chance say something like, "Sorry, I don't date unpopular people" or "No thanks, I'm not desperate enough to say yes."
   
   
3. Escape - Some people listen to music to escape from reality. It's a relaxation technique, like Yoga. They don't want to think about their problems so they listen to music and avoid thinking about it.
   
   
   
4. Communication - Music can be a way to communicate with one another. If you have no hobbies in common, maybe you share the same music interest and that allows people to interact with one another. Even if you're from different countries and speak in different languages, music can break through the social barriers resulting in bonds of friendships being formed all over the world.
   
   
5. Entertainment - In any party you host, you need some music to get it started now don't you? If you disagree with this statement, please take a class in how to throw a party known as PTY 101. Think about it, without music, it's going to be a really, really dull black & white life. Music can provide you with the right colors to complete the picture making it more interesting to the eyes of humanity.
   
   
6. Social Reforming - Some music have hidden messages within them or maybe even an obvious one. The message could be something like how we should join the fight on cancer, how we should not ignore the social problems going on around the world, or even on how to destroy your properties to release some stress. Hey, it does work you know. Releasing stress through destroying some stuffs lying around the house, especially if it's own by someone you dislike.

So far, these are the reasons I could think of at the moment. For me, I especially believe in reason number 2, 3 and 5 because that's why I love music a lot. How about you guys? What do you believe music is?