3 Sunflowers...

Today marks the last day of March, the last day of my one month depression until the next March. Every year, I’d just be glad that this month was over and not do anything but move on with my life. This year, I wanted to do something different. So, I bought myself 3 sunflowers. Why sunflowers you asked? It was my dad’s favorite flower. He always loved it for as long as I can remember. I decided to do a ritual of saying goodbye to him and to the month of March at the lake in front of my condominium at the park. Why the lake? It was one of his favorite places in the whole of Subang Jaya. Why 3 out of every other number I could have? Easy, because each of them represents a specific day and meaning as you shall see.

The first flower is a dedication for my dad’s birthday. His birthday was at the 1^st of March and he would have turned 62 this year. I said happy birthday to him and gave him this flower as well as told him stories of the good old times back then. I remembered on one of my birthdays back then when he and my whole family tricked me during my birthday. They made it as if they never bought any birthday presents for me that year. They told me sorry and I said to them it was okay with a broken heart that year. When I came back from the bathroom, the room was filled with presents and I was so surprised by it. I still couldn’t believe they pulled off a stunt like that on me! Wish I could have gotten even with them for that. I wanted to do something like that on his birthday. As they say, it’s never too late. It’s my turn to surprise you with this flower. Happy birthday Papa!

The second flower was a dedication to the anniversary of the day of his death. He died battling cancer on the 29^th of March 2000. It was such a sad day and I was still so young that I couldn’t remember much on what happen that day. But I did remember that he smiled all the way until the very end. I never got a chance to say goodbye to him before because I was too young to understand what it meant when someone died. And so, with this flower I say goodbye to him. I told him that I love him, that I miss him, and that I’ll be okay no matter what happens from now on. Even though we’re apart from each other physically, I know that he’s always with me in my heart. I hope you’re having a nice time up there owning a field of sunflowers as far as you can see just like the ones you’ve described to me before. Rest in peace Papa…

The last flower was to say goodbye to the month of March. Finally, the month of depression is over. With this flower, I throw my sorrows and regrets away, letting it get washed away into the water. I break myself free from the chains that had held me back for all this time. I wish upon this flower that may I find peace within my mind, and my heart. Goodbye for another year March. I’ll do my best to get over the month of March next time for my family, for my friends, for my dad, and most of all… for myself.

This goodbye ritual has helped me find what I’ve been looking for… closure. I’m thinking of making this a yearly thing so that every time March came along, I’d do this at the end. It certainly makes me feel better to do this rather than just wait for the month to end and not do anything. Some wise friends of mine once told me, that instead of thinking about it too much, getting myself depressed, I should do something for my dad and for myself. Thanks to everyone who’s put up with me all throughout this month and those who’ve helped me get through all of this. Sorry for causing such trouble to everyone and again, thank you. Till next time Papa, bye bye!

Grindhouse : Planet Terror Review

Okay, this has got to be the most ridiculously stupidest movie I've ever seen. It was really, really horrible! I've had my share of bad movies before but this thing takes the cherry on top of the cake. This movie was directed and created by Robert Rodriguez in the year 2007. Wow, and that was only 2 years ago. For a movie supposedly created in the year 2007, it has the worst quality ever.

I couldn't stop myself from laughing while I was watching it. But not because it was funny. The movie was so horrible, I found myself laughing on the floor. Least that helped cheer me up a little. Seriously, it's that bad! The movie is suppose to be a zombie movie and I was thinking that maybe it could compete with a movie such as the Resident Evil trilogy. Man was I way, way off the mark.

Not only was the quality of the movie extremely bad, the plot was worse. The special effects were seriously defected as it looked like such a low-budget film. Correction, it made a low-budget film seem like a blockbuster hit. The lines used in the movie seemed like something used back in the 70's. Yeah, it was THAT bad. Don't even get me started on the acting. Never have I seen such bad acting before. I mean, it made the Disaster Movie looked like an Oscar award winning movie.

There goes 1 hour and 30 minutes of my life. If you want a good zombie movie, go for the Resident Evil trilogy or the Dawn of the Dead quadrilogy. Now those are some good movies. Least better than this piece of junk. I literally wanted to gauge my eyes out from seeing this crappy movie. I know that it's a cruel thing to say, but I'm just stating the facts in my own opinion and my own opinion is saying that the movie was the worst movie ever created as far as I know. Planet of the Apes was better than this low-budget film.

What was your worst movie experience?

Efforts of Earth Hour 2009

Earth Hour happened yesterday as most of you would know. I tried to persuade my family into taking part of the event and I could only manage to convince them to turn off the lights inside the house. The rest of the electronics were still on unfortunately, such as the TV and porchlight. Oh well, at least we did something rather than nothing right?

Not much I can say about the condomenium next to mine. They supposedly are celebrating Earth Hour 2009 by having an outdoor event. Ironically, they turned on all of their electrical appliances and there were a lot of lights on the park at their side. The lights were like the ones you see on stadium game matches so you could imagine how bright it was. Not to mentioned the karaoke session they had over there that was really noisy with all the speakers they put up. Talk about environmental friendly right?

I must say that I'm impressed with the efforts put on by some shopping malls. They celebrated Earth Hour throughout this whole month by being environmental friendly. Some put up a few recycling bins within the mall, while others reduced the number of lights turned on during that period of time. Although it's not much, it's a start. Everything begins with a small step right?

Most of my friends celebrated Earth Hour as well by closing off all of their lights and electrical appliances which I'm so proud of them doing their part to help the world. Some of them even closed off all of their electrical appliances throughout the night until morning!

I've always loved the environment and I do the best that I can to do my part in helping the world. Some things that I do to conserve energy is closing off all switches that is not in use or needed at the moment such as my phone charger, my lights, even at times my fan. Before I go to sleep, I'd make sure the lights and switches are turned off and when my phone has been charged fully, I'd close the switch straight away instead of waiting until I'm free to do so. As for water, I'd close the tap while I'm brushing my teeth as I won't use it until I need to rinse so it'd save the water. I even recycle the old newspapers lying in the house at times.

Society today seem to take things for granted. Some litter their thrash around everywhere. At home, at work, even at public places. They expect other people to clean their thrash so it'd be okay to just leave or worse, throw their rubbish everywhere. It saddens me to see how people don't seem to care about the environment they live in. When I see the thrash lying around at times, I have a very strong urge to just pick it up and throw it away. People need to think this through, do you want to live in a world filled with thrash such as this?

The earth needs a break from the power we've taken from it for so long. Even 1 hour can make a big difference. People need to realize and do something about the environmental problems we're facing instead of realizing and not do anything whatsoever. Even throwing your thrash in the garbage bin would help the environment. It takes just one person to make a difference. Would you be that person?

Confessions of a Shopaholic (2009) Movie Review

Rated as the number one anticipated movie by all shoppers, this comedic movie directed by P.J. Hogan proved to be a worthwhile movie to watch. My first impression when I first saw the trailer was the lead actress who looked at first I thought was Amy Adams of Enchanted. When I heard her speak, I knew then that it was a different actress. Also, when I looked at her more closely, she looked a little different compared to Amy Adams, as she looked smaller to me.

The movie tells the story of a shopaholic journalist named Rebecca Bloomwood (played by Isla Fisher) who is drawn to a store and buy just about anything like a moth to a flame. One day, her addiction got the best of her when all 12 of her credit cards had been reached to its maximum limit and the magazine that she was working for had gone to bankruptcy causing her to be in a big credit card debt. But that doesn't stop her from shopping for things though.

That was only the starting of the movie. I won't tell you the whole story as it would just kill off your anticipations. But still it's a good movie to watch if you have the urge to shop till you drop for things that you don't really need. It really hits you at the spot with all the things said within the movie which is true to most of us.

It has a lot, and I mean a lot of comedy within it as well as some serious moments. Although there are parts of it which is quite cliché, still it was good. I especially liked how desperate the people were when there was a sale going on. It was really hilarious especially the part with the frozen credit card. There were a few touching moments as well, mostly near the end, as any comedy/chick flick movie would have.

Overall the movie was great. It won't win a number one spot to me, but still it was good. One thing that I still don't understand was why this movie was rated PG13. There wasn't really much things that would be inappropriate for children unlike some U movies that I've seen. Heck, there wasn't even any love scenes within the movie! I'd give it a 3.3 out of 5 star rating. There were some eye-opening values to shopaholics everywhere portrayed within the movie so that's good for all you shoppers out there who can't control yourself. I'd say go and watch it when you can with some friends, especially if you're a shopaholic. This is the ideal movie for you guys.

Little bit of both bad and good day

Today started a little rough at the beginning. I screwed up my group presentation this morning. I blanked at some of the points I was talking about and had to refer to my notes and not to mention that I stuttered a lot when I was talking. I should have written it down on cue cards in case something like that were to happen.

After that, I guess it got a little bit better as my mood was still good. There was an Apple exhibition in college today which was quite informative on the amount of cash that I need to get my Mac. LP and Paul just love to rub it in my face, to everyone's face for that matter. They were such pure Mac promoters. Evil!

After that, Lik Pang, Han Sen, Jonathan and myself went to hang out at Han Sen's house for awhile. We were playing games and joking around a lot during that time. It was fun.

We left his house around 7.00pm to go to the Earth Hour event at college. It was quite alright I guess. There was free food and drinks so all was good. When that was over at around 9.30pm, we went to eat dinner at one of the mamak's store. We stayed for about an hour until we all had to go home.

On the way back, I started feeling a little bit... let's just say tired. My mood swings are more frequent this week so guess it's not much of a surprise. Oh well, I'm still able to keep a straight face so that's good news.

That was about all I can write for now as I'm still feeling a little tired. Tomorrow I might be watching a movie with Han Sen so I'll write a review on the movie we'll be watching as tomorrow's post. Most likely the movie is going to be the new one called "Confessions of a shopaholic" so we'll see how it goes.

Rain

I love playing in the rain. The only thing I don't like is when my clothes are wet and my mom starts scolding me for it. The rain seems really... peaceful to me. I feel free whenever I'm in the rain. A lot of you may say that it sounds crazy, but it's true. Regardless of whether there would be a higher chance for me to fall sick due to the rain.

I believe that the rain can cleanse a person of any trouble he or she is facing. When those raindrops roll down your cheeks, it feels as though you have nothing to worry about. The rain washes every sin and guilt you have away. Any sort of problems are instantly gone at that moment in the rain.

I haven't played in the rain for quite some time now. I should do it soon to clear my head of all the issues. Who knows? Maybe if I do it often enough, the rain would wash away all of my sicknesses along with it.

A day of rest, relaxation and a whole lot of fun!

Today was just what I needed. A break from everything. After our class today LP and I went to invade Han Sen's house for fun. We were thinking before that of going home early until the idea came to us like a shining light shines up above our heads. A calling... to annoy the heck out of Han Sen. But naa, we went to his house to see how the group assignment was and help him out in finishing it. Okay, mostly we just wanted to annoy him ahahah!

We were finishing up the presentation slides that we were going to use this Friday. It was a little bit frustrating to change it, but Han Sen and I left it to LP to summarize most of it. And then it got to the fun part when we were thinking up some whacky ideas for the slides. It's seriously cute and hilarious and I can't wait for us to present it on Friday. Especially the part where we introduce LP to the class ahahah!

After we finished up the slides around 7.00pm+, Han Sen's parents came home and brought with them some pizzas for everyone to eat. Yay, free food hahaha! But LP and I felt like we were imposing on them a lot. But they said it was okay and they've already bought the food so we can't exactly refuse them. Oh well, pizza was delicious and so were the lychees *grins*.

Han Sen did a very big mistake though. He introduced Sims 2 to LP which resulted in him getting so obsessed with it. He was smiling non-stop while he was building his so called dream house. It was really hilarious to see him like that. Han Sen was teaching him that and was watching some chinese dramas on TV with me. I haven't watch chinese drama shows in quite a long time so I was kind of thrilled to watch it again. Eventhough the plot was quite predictable, still was all good.

We left his house around 9.30pm after LP was finally done with his house, which looked really incomplete and ridiculous but oh well, it's his dream house so we didn't want to say anything... oh who are we kidding? Of course we critisized it! But it was all fun and good hahaha! Today was a really good day and having fun like that made me forget about all my troubles just like that. Thanks guys!