What ARE my plans?

It seems as though ever since I've entered college, expectations have been placed on me on how I should lead my life. Now that I'm in university, those expectations still have not changed one bit. I wish nothing more than to refute the path laid out to me as I look at my life now expecting to have a plan for myself to lead my own life. Yet as I look forward into the future I haven't the slightest idea on what I would be doing.

Most of the people I know either already know what they want to do in the next 5 years of their life or are already doing it in the present. I on the other hand am still figuring all of it out. My family has already given me several paths to follow, yet I can't even think of one that I would like to follow. I gaze upon the different people that I've met in my life, some you could just tell what that person's going to do with their life, where others already have a 5, or even 10 years of their life planned out. It leaves me wondering how do they do it? How could you figure out what you want to do in life when you've only spent a short time living your life?

The more I think about what the future holds, the more fear strikes into my heart. I start to question what do I like to do? What do I WANT to do? How will I know if that's what I really want and would I be able to succeed in it? Insecurity swells up within me as I see friends and family who've already started following through with their life plans while I can't even decide on what to have for dinner the next day.

As I sat by the bench earlier today looking at young children playing with one another at the park, I start looking back into the past at how simple life was back then when you do not have to worry about things that are far into the future. All you think of at the time was the present, how to enjoy and make most out of it. The nostalgic feeling of running around playing tag with my cousins hit me hard and made me miss those simple times. No matter how I wish for it, those times only exist in my memories now and the future is approaching rapidly. I can only hope that someday I would be able to have it all figured out as others around me have and lead my life the way I want it.